Perpetual Waiting

Well, a lot has happened in the 6 months since I left UNCG (and now I've finally decided to go back). In these 6+ months, I have:

*Locked eyes with another and have been engaged in sporadic conversation. Relationship status as of now is undetermined, but we will see.

*I started my job back at Waffle House in January, left in May because I hadn't made but $3/hour.

*Grown several leaps and bounds closer with my friends that live in Greensboro during the school year, prompting me to feel like I am going to move out of my rural home within the next 2 terms and into Greensboro.

*I have mended broken bonds between me and a few others.

*I am increasingly aware of the difference between me, my parents, and my two or three friends in the rural area of Siler City/Bear Creek. Maybe it is true that you really do hurt the ones you love....

*I've changed my dogma from what I was taught to what I've learned over the past two years. It really fits me a lot more than what I grew up learning from an uninclusive community that shunned and prodded those who were different to change. I am extremely enlightened.

*I'm currently re-enrolling at UNCG, because I feel the need to get my degree in... something. Also, I have a longing to be close to an accepting, loving, caring community of my close-knit friends that I've made. They're cool. :)

Those are just the tip of the iceberg, but mostly what has happened as well. But, it always seems that any of us always end up waiting for something. For me, I can't wait for the summer to end. At this point, I am miserable in a rural setting--something I never thought I'd say. Although I love the nature aspect of it, it's more the hospitality of the people that has to do with it. It feels more like they're growing more and more hostile towards me being here, invading their peaceful, simple community.

But, still, waiting is something that I've had to do my whole life, and I still have to wait. However, I have started to wear a shooting star ring on my right hand to remind me that although it seems like you are waiting forever for something, it eventually comes to you, because it has to make its own progress as well.

Because, we all know that a star symbolizes hope and longing. If it starts moving toward you, doesn't that mean that your dreams are coming true?

Don't ever give up on something you think about everyday.

For me, this would mean my goal of being closer to my potential love interest at the moment. For you, it could be something entirely different.

So, I will leave you all with the image of my star ring that embodies that my wish will soon be fulfilled.